Looking back.



so, its the last day of 2008. that usually means time to reflect on how the year went, right? i can honestly say that it has been one of the bests for me. id like to claim 2008 as the year of adventure. i started a new school & traveled to different cities across the country all on my own. i lost lovers, gained some back, drifted with people & grew closer to the best of the best. as each year passes i can only hope to learn more about myself which will enable me to grow & be the lady i want to be. hope everyone has someone to kiss at midnight & bring in the new year right! xo

as a true gemini i cant really stay in one very place long. its been a year (which is a new record for me) & that means time for change.

my pretty christmas from the palazzo hotel, las vegas. hope everyone is having a wonderful holiday. ciao ciao!

a part of me hates how so many people want to be photographers, but maybe thats just because i am one of them. i have a headache & i never get headaches. i love that its raining today.

i love every single thing about this...ahh fosse, youre so cool, youre so cool.

saw ninja fuckin sonik last night.

but i still wont fall asleep before 1am.

last night i had another dream about nyc (honestly..i get it). the sky was grey & dark blue, like the sun was just about to rise (my favorite time) & the buildings looked like backdrops of a movie, unreal. my friend & i were telling everyone how we finally found an apt in the city & were working at the speakeasy.

funnyface

i wish that we could talk about it,
but there, thats the problem

its cold, lets go to mexico

i just want to do this everyday.

soo last night i had a dream i got an apartment in brooklyn...

crushin'

she's a high-plains drifter, loner
baby's a rebel
cool disposition gets ya
shows ya new level
crazy abrasive
enough to make me wanna taste it
figure out what makes it tick
so i can dig it out and break it

curiosity killed the cat
but liquor helped me build back all
of the confidence stripped
intrigued by the fact
that she could fuck, shower and
bounce out my house like that
left me sleepin with my doubts
ok wait I know her scheme
self-inspired detachment
keeps her cold like the breeze
she needs the heat of passion
good bedroom savvy
break your back kinda fun
wild buck turn the beats up
i'm loud when i come

and out of nowhere
she says word i'll go there
should we leave now or do you wanna stay awhile
she says i don't care
instantly
my jacket is on and i'm a wreck
tip with me
baby where'd you park let's jet

yo she's the kinda girl that
doesn't want no relationship
but damn i think she's kinda cool
but damn just be patient kid
regular basis with sex for quite a while
puppy chased his tail, caught it
yo he wants the idol now
never should have brought it like that
cause now when i think about it and look back
i'll never forget the way she laughed
when i asked if the only way i'll
ever get to see her is
when she's on her back

b-b-b-but the first time we
fucked was shakin', wild
digital underground style
no lie no exaggeration
glad to make your acquaintance
what's your name again?
molly, good golly miss
here take my digits, please call me
she was cool like that
yo how'd you get like that
i never had a date that gave me head like that
and it was said like that
and she replied with a thank you
before you leave molly
let me kiss that tattoo on your ankle

and she was out
didn't see her again for a week
no call
and when she see me no attempt to speak
so like a good bitch
i make the example
'baby, how you been?'
half an hour later we in the car
fuckin like old friends
turn on the dome light
to get my pants on right
travel safe, see your ass around
have a good night (bye)

that's it no conversation,
game playin over some coffee
she's out
moments after she pulls that body off me
(what you gonna do?)
i'm stressed, i'm stressed, i'm stressed,
i'm so confused
she doesn't seem like the type that's that loose
or maybe she does
realistically i don't know her that well
but if you let me i'd follow that
sexy ass to hell and back
tell her that (tell her that)

yo you think she's really listening?

hurricanes

last night i had another dream where i was in paris. shit shit shit, i need out of this city!

party monster

new york, i love you. xo